Hey hey hey!
New week, new blog post.
Boy… where do I even begin with this one?
I needed to take a time out and recollect in so many areas of my life, hence the major lack of posts.
It’s not a mystery that have been struggling with my faith and relationship with God, but I can finally say that I’m back where I need to be. I’m not perfect, but I’m working on it.
I want to talk about starting again with God. How hard it is for those who have fallen away, from God, to go back to him, how when we go back into the world, and re-learn old habits, it can be super hard to go back to God.
This is mostly because of the shame that we feel. That feeling of
God won’t accept me the way I am, I have strayed too far to go back now.
But let me tell you now. That is nothing but a big lie from the devil himself!
The devil doesn’t want us to go back, he wants us to stay away from God and his wonders. He wants us to be lost sheep reluctant to go back to our Shepherd when he’s trying to find us and take us back to the rest of the herd.
The thief’s purpose is to kill, steal and destroy. My purpose is to give them rich and satisfying life.
– John 10:10 [NLT]
Another reason may be, we may find it hard to go back to God is because we have become cynical towards God.
God hasn’t helped me with such a thing, so what’s the point?
Another lie! God wants nothing but good things for us and there could be multiple reasons as to why the thing you prayed for wasn’t answered. Do you know that no is also an answer? Maybe you weren’t ready for that thing, or that thing was going to destroy you once you received it, which is why what you wanted or what you prayed for wasn’t answered.
“For I know the plans I have for you”, says the LORD. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope“.
– Jeremiah 29:11 [NLT]
Listen, God has a reason for everything, trust me on that one. And just as the scripture says the plans he has for us are so amazing! So amazing that when they happen, we won’t be able to comprehend it!
When I was going through my struggle I was so sure that me and God had parted ways for good! So sure that He was no longer in my favour because of all the things I had done, the amount of times I had fallen and the countless arguments I had with Him about where I was in life. But God didn’t care about the things I had done in the past, He just wanted me back! He was waiting for me with open arms. Not just Him but people at church.
“In the same way, there is more joy in heaven over one lost sinner who repents and returns to God than over ninety-nine others who are righteous and haven’t strayed!”
Luke 15:7 [NLT]
I was so pressed that people at church would be hateful or push me away for leaving, afraid that it would be this whole thing of starting again from scratch, but it was the complete opposite. Thank God that I belong to a loving church family.
Sometimes life happens and you have to start from scratch. Starting again is not a bad thing at all.
You lose your job, you have to start again and search for a new job.
You move locations, you have to start again
You start a new job, you have to start again and get into a new groove with your job.
You fall away from God and you come back, you are starting again from the beginning. Having to unlearn worldly habits again, learning to trust God and to have faith in Him again. It can be hard! But it gets easier and it’s always worth it.
I was so afraid of starting again. Not just with God but everyone else I had to go back to.
But sometimes we have to take that leap of faith.
To have faith that when we jump into starting again, it’s not going to be a perfect straight forward journey, but because God is in control and He will make a way.
Another thing I struggled with was the notation of forgiving myself for back sliding (falling back into sin, for those who are unaware of the term), until I was reminded that
God has already forgiven me, so I don’t need to forgive myself.
Once I had accepted that it became easier to start again with my relationship with God. From having short conversations every so often, to now having mini prayer sessions or even just having a conversation like I’m talking to a friend.
God doesn’t care how you talk to him, He just wants you to talk to him, even if it’s not in the ‘formal’ way they teach us in church. And that’s one of the biggest steps to starting again, like with any friend, talking.
And the scripture was fulfilled that says “Abraham believed God, and it was counted to him as righteous” – and he was called a friend of God
– James 2:23
So to finish this post I will leave you with 3 steps to starting again with God.
- Leap in faith and into God
- Accept that God has forgiven you, so you don’t need to forgive yourself
- Start talking to God again!
And the bonus step for you guys would be
To find yourself a loving church family.
(If you don’t already have one)
Now, like every family there might be arguments every so often, but don’t worry about it. God put those people in that church to develop your character a little bit more, and you’re there to develop theirs too.
But that’s a conversation for another post.
I pray that once reading this, you have been able to start again with God or maybe you’re reading this and decided to start a relationship with God for the first time. Regardless, welcome back! You took a big step and I am proud of you. You have so many amazing things and a beautiful journey to come.
With that being said
That’s all she wrote …