Day 5: Church Snob

Hi. My name is Farielle. And I’m a church snob.

Well .. I was.

Church snob; someone who forgets why they’re Christian, becomes judgy and only their church is doing things right.

I came to realise this when I was having a conversation about churches and I said “I can’t go to that church. They all go clubbing”. And he then pointed out that I was a snob. A religious snob.

Yes some churches are dodgy but once you’ve been to a church who’s doing right, you should be able to differentiate one that’s dodgy and one that’s really for God.

I became so religious that I wasn’t going to church for the right reasons anymore. I was going not only for the social aspect but because it became a habit. It became something I did because I ‘had to’.

That’s the worst time to be a Christian, when you become super judgy of everyone and everything.

Yes the bible says (paraphrasing) you shouldn’t judge others as God is the judge. But it also says you (Christians) should judge others unless you are doing the same thing you are judging others for then you have no right to judge.

I knew this. So I made it my mission not to judge others who were doing the same as me but I found another way to judge other so-called Christians.

And one of those ways was music.

Secular music is the devils music!

– Every older Christian ever!!

I know some secular music can be quite vulgar with a lot of swear words and talking about sex, drugs and all that jazz but there are some that has no vulgar words, is super clean and most likely about love.

As a singer-songwriter, and at the time Christian, I couldn’t decide if I was even allowed to write songs about love and how I was feeling, without including God or my relationship with him.

I didn’t even know if I could listen to one of my favourite contemporary musicians Hollyn because she sang Christian songs but she also sang love songs.

I played her music one time to someone from the church and they said “I don’t listen to that kind of music, I don’t think they’re proper Christians. Can never tell if they’re talking about God or not”

Another time someone said “Lecrae just said he doesn’t want to be classed as a gospel singer!” The horror!! Obviously I felt offended too. Why doesn’t he want to be classed as a gospel singer? Is he a sinner now?!

But I get it now. Not being limited to just one category/genre. The ability to sing songs that are about God and songs that aren’t just don’t go against your faith. He’s just a singer.

When I did my Interview with Rejoice I asked her how her song Enough clinked in with her relationship with God. And this was her response:

I’ll experience heartbreak, I’m still a christian, but I’ll write a song about heartbreak because that’s something that’s very relevant to me. Even in saying that, my relationship with God is very much present in most of the songs I write.

Just because a singer says they’re Christian but sings songs that are about anything other than God (within reason obviously) does not mean they’re not Christian.

As mentioned, at this moment I don’t class myself as a Christian because I feel like I don’t meet that standard and I haven’t felt that way since March. It doesn’t stop me from believing in God, because I still do. But what I’m going to tell you is

If you are a Christian, don’t lose yourself. Don’t become religious.

Jefferson Bethke once wrote a spoken word and titled it

Hate religion, love Jesus.

(It’s on YouTube). And it makes the most sense.

I recently had a catch up with a friend of mine and he said to me:

Let God’s word be God’s word, not churches word. God before everything, even church.

Don’t forget the church is just the people, so yes God before church.

So …

Resolution

For 2019 I will put God before everything the way I used to before I became religious.

For 2019 I’m going to hate religion and love Jesus. And try not to lose myself.

For 2019 I’m going to write more songs about how I’m feeling and not feel confused on whether I’m ‘allowed’ to write how I feel whether God is written in it or not.

Because at the end of the day I pray before I write therefore God is 100% present in the things I write. After all, it is He who gave me this gift in the first place.

And like the begining and the end of every Nollywood movie

To God be the Glory

And that’s all she wrote folks …

F A R I E L L E. N

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